Neha
I wonder if there is still anyone around to read this. No, I am not complaining. The long periods of my absence from this space deserves just that. Every time I promise to you and myself to be regular and every time I break it.

The last one month has been grueling. I will share details later. Just that it was one of my worst nightmares coming true. Ankit (my younger brother) had a freak accident. The days that followed seem like a dream, a bad one.

It's over now. And I have so much to thank the power above; for being with him, saving him from what could have been worse, blessing him.

He is on the road to recovery now. I am glad that he radiates the same optimism and positive attitude that he always had. Now, he is working hard with his physiotherapist to get the movement back in his left arm.

After being with him every minute during the last month, when he left last week, I felt a part of me was leaving. But I was also happy, very happy; happy that he felt and looked better; happy that the most difficult phase was over; happy that he was getting back to normal life after being bedridden for a month.

It's strange how much we crib about the monotony in life and how much we miss it in times of chaos and stress.

So, life is slowly returning to normalcy. In a few hours from now, I step into another year of my life.

As I write this, too many thoughts seem to be racing in my mind, all striving for attention. It's difficult to express them in words. Yes, I know. As a writer, this should be an easy task; however, it only seems too daunting.

The last one year changed my life completely. It's given me my love, a very loving family and a whole new life. A life I always dreamed and longed for.

I know it's all for some one's blessing who's looking from above and smiling. How I wish I could hug him for just one time and tell him how everything that he wished for me has come true.

I don't like celebrating birthdays. It might sound strange, but I have always preferred to spend it like any other day. Friends and loved ones have always tried to coax me out of this, but to no avail. I have gone out for lunch and dinner with them, but more for their happiness than my own.

Being by myself is all that I want. This day brings back many memories that I relive every year. This is one day I have always wanted to keep to myself.

Birthdays are to be celebrated and I have every reason to celebrate tomorrow. I am not sure if I want to do that yet. It will take time, rather years.

Yet, I am thankful, very thankful.

For a life partner who is everything I could ever wish or ask for.

For every single person I am blessed with in this life.

For every person who loves and cares for me unconditionally.

For this beautiful life I don't know if I deserve.

And all the beautiful people around me who make it even more beautiful every day.

I feel blessed and every time I close my eyes in a prayer, the first words that escape my lips are of gratitude.

And a resolve to do all I can for every person in my life. I may not always have the resources to help, but will always have the heart and keenness to be with them in all times, good and bad.

Thank You, The Supreme Power Above. Thank You for everything.


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  1. I might have not been leaving my comments often here Neha, but I read most of your blogs and they are always touching. I love the way you express things clearly with all heart. I actually feel like we are chatting :)


    I just loved how you easily wrote, "It's strange how much we crib about the monotony in life and how much we miss it in times of chaos and stress.". It so damn true and we always tend to either ignore this feeling or don't realise it.

    Keep Writing
    Bhawna :)


  2. I might not be leaving a comment on your blogs, but I read most of your blogs.

    I really like the way you express small little and sometimes ignored things of life. I especially loved the lines in this blog, "It's strange how much we crib about the monotony in life and how much we miss it in times of chaos and stress.".

    You said it so easily, but if I think then I realized that we all think so, but either ignore this feeling or just don't take time to think and realize it :)

    Hope your brother gets well soon.

    Keep Writing
    Bhawna :)


  3. gopinath Says:

    Happy b'day. I like the post a lot. I liked the statement about life feels monotonus untill some thing happens. I wish ur brother a speedy recovery.


  4. so sorry to hear about your brother and so glad that he is recovering!
    We should be thankful for each and every day!


  5. Rahul Bhatia Says:

    Best wishes and many happy returns of the day, Neha! We need to thank almighty for all the blessings each day!


  6. Jenny Says:

    Wish your brother a very speedy recovery Neha! The postitive attidue really helps there!

    A very Happy birthday to you. Hope this year is filled with loads and loads of happiness :-)

    and this is your space, update it as you please :-)


  7. Jack Says:

    Neha,

    May God be thanked for blessings. Please do tell what kind of accident he had. Hope you have an enjoyable birthday. My wishes are with you for happiness always.

    Take care


  8. phatichar Says:

    :)

    God bless. Touchwood.


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  10. Neha - I've been thinking a lot about you and have prayed for your brother. I'm so thankful he is on the road to recovery.

    Blessings to you on your birthday - what a beautiful post outlining all the reasons you are so thankful!!!

    Stephanie


  11. Shilpa Garg Says:

    Oh yes, we must be grateful to the almighty above for all the blessings...
    Good to note that your brother is well now.
    This is soo true... "It's strange how much we crib about the monotony in life and how much we miss it in times of chaos and stress".
    Belated birthday wishes! :)


  12. Neha Says:

    @ Bhawna - Thank you so much! Those words truly mean a lot :)

    @ Gopinath - Thanks a lot :)

    @ Mom of A and a - Thank you :)


  13. Neha Says:

    @ Rahul Bhatia - Thank you so much :)

    @ Jenny - Thank you :)


  14. Neha Says:

    @ Jack Uncle - He had a bike accident and hurt his left arm badly. He is much better now and is recovering now.

    Thank you for your wishes :)


  15. Neha Says:

    @ Phatichar - Thank you :)

    @ Traffic Pulse India - Thank you for dropping by and leaving your thoughts :)


  16. Neha Says:

    @ Mikayla - Thank you so much for your thoughts and wishes :)

    @ Shilpa - Thank you so much :)


  17. Melissa G. Says:

    It sounds like you have had a lot going on and a lot of stress lately.

    I'm so glad your brother is healing!

    My husband feels the same way about birthdays. To him it is just another day. But I see it as a day to celebrate his life and to let him know in a special way that we care about him and are thankful for him. I'm sure your friends and family feel the same way about you and just want you to know how much you are loved. =)


  18. Neha Says:

    Thank you so much, Melissa :)


  19. Sirisha Says:

    Hi Blogdost :)

    Lovely article. 'Count your blessing everyday even the air you breath' are the words that I remember my kindergarten teacher said. So powerful are these words,they stuck with me forever.
    I do celebrate birthdays. Oh! I celebrate whatever I can. Any reason to be happy is good. :)

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