Neha

It had been a long day. She returned home, took a shower and placed herself comfortably on her bed, looking around for the remote control. Switching on the TV, she checked her cell phone again... may be there's a text. The cell screen showed the time again... four hours already and no text since then!

She toys with the idea of calling him, picks up her mobile... then snaps it shut. But, there's no harm in calling anyway. Just then, her cell phone rings. It is him! Nonchalantly, she answers the phone, while her heart pounced as if she was going to run a 100 metre dash!

"Hi, what's up?"

"Nothing, surfing channels... you tell me.."

"Nothing much either; just returned with friends after dinner, so thought of calling you..."

"Hmmm... so what else..."

And this goes on for hours and at some occasions, the entire day or night! Even with nothing common between them, these conversations last for hours, with each one reluctant to disconnect. They talk, share, laugh, fight, cry, fuss, pamper... all during these conversations. Cell phone has become the prime of her survival with texts and calls becoming the constant blood flow. What is it? Is it simply the presence of this person at the other end that is so important?

They have known each other for years and been the closest of friends. Even though they have barely met 6-7 times, they share the rarest bonding. He has always been there for her, even when not with her and she prizes him as one of the closest persons in her life. Every event is a reason to call him, to speak to him, to know his reaction or simply listen to him. She can share her darkest secrets with him, her silliest thoughts, her most coveted desires, her hidden fears, her forgotten dreams... and she does all this because she knows that in him she has a friend, a guide, a listener and probably... the biggest admirer. There are no pretensions, just an honest, pure and extraordinarily beautiful relation, which makes both of them feel complete and most importantly.... happy. She has seen relationships, but never similar to this one.

There is this constant urge to just be around there... somewhere. She feels elated of late... more content and more secured. She is unable to relate to this feeling as it's not something she has felt before. She argues with herself, fights with her heart, struggles with her emotions and then... gives in to her feelings and even those words that seem to be on the verge of spilling out. Unable to comprehend the sudden change in and around her, she questions herself and each time ends up with more questions than she can answer. Sometimes, she looks for those answers in people around her, and then withdraws to her shell seeking them within.

But there's one answer that can help clear all her confusion.... that one question that she poses to herself each time and the answer to which is what she has been running from........ Is this love?

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  1. Ashutosh Says:

    Why does she want to give it a name...Isn't the feeling of being comfortable in sum1's company and getting restless coz of his lack of response more than enough..


  2. aamirzzz Says:

    Nice Post!

    I can draw two possible answers for this Question!!

    A)Its NOT Love - Its an infatuation maybe, or its just that since this friend of her's is a guy, she sees the possibility that yes, its LOVE. Come to think of it, what if this close friend of her's was a girl. Will then, the same thoughts/confusion/restlessness be there?I guess not.
    So, since this guy is so caring etc etc,and that, this girl sees him as his BESTEST friend, such question (is this love) starts to crop up.

    B) Yes, Its Love -(i) If, after each conversation, her mind&heart keeps longing for that another conversation that'll take place.
    (ii) If, when she sees him in pain, her heart goed out for him.She is more concerned and hurt than the guy himself.
    (iii) When, even during her work hours/or his...she just can't wait for the time to pass by, so that she talk to him/meet him and tell him hw her day was and how was his day.
    (iv) when even after texting gud Night, she is expecting another, just another (last) sms from him.
    (v) yes its Love, because friends don't talk for hours over the phone where from casual chat the conversation turns to be a quarrel, then to a pampering phase etc. and at the end of it(even after hours and hours of talking) when the call/meeting ends she cant wait for the conversation/meeting to start all over again.


    Well, I hope I have made it quite clear now.(thats my view to it).

    Aamir


  3. Girijesh Says:

    I would like to fight more and argue to the end...

    Hate you and love you...and then hate you and then love you more and more...

    I wanna hold you 'coz I would never have enough of you...

    But, I must let you go 'coz letting go is love too!

    It indeed is...but the heart has it's own reasons, it feels alive when you are there.

    (If the girl ever felt such things for that guy, it was and it is love...FOR SURE. If not, it never was...will never be.)

    There is a very fine line between 'being in love' and 'the thought of being in love' :)


    Keep Writing, Keep Smiling :)


  4. pushkar Says:

    "four hours already and no text since then "....
    "she answers the phone while her heart pounced as if she was going to run a 100 metre dash".....
    "they talk, share, cry ,fuss, pamper all during these conversation"..
    "each one reluctant to disconect"....
    "just an honest,pure and extraordinarily beautiful relation.."
    N finally the most beautiful line..."even though they have barely met 6-7 times they share the most rarest bonding"
    NEHA,ITS LOVE!!! DER R NO TWO WAYS BOUT IT...its never wise to make friendship as an excuse for sumthng else..love is a beautiful feeling..it lasts long ..sometimes even fr life....its selfless,it does not require the physical presence of the other person always....it makes u feel happy ,it makes u feel secured,it gives u d feeling tht dis shud have happnd earliar, d state of mind n heart in this condition is unmatched...der is trust,faith n finest bonding involved...n dey r D ingredients of TRUE LOVE..if SHE has realised these things in tht particular relationship...TRUST ME SHE NEED NOT QUESTION HERSELF FURTHER..!! ITS LOVE!!


  5. ani_aset Says:

    it is love..but does she want to accept it? that should be the next post may be


  6. Neha Says:

    True Ashutosh, it's not necessary to give it a name, but till how long can you sustain it otherwise?


  7. Neha Says:

    Thanks Aamir, that is surely an insight. Here are the answers to your questions:
    -(i) If, after each conversation, her mind&heart keeps longing for that another conversation that'll take place. - Yes

    (ii) If, when she sees him in pain, her heart goed out for him.She is more concerned and hurt than the guy himself. - Don't know

    (iii) When, even during her work hours/or his...she just can't wait for the time to pass by, so that she talk to him/meet him and tell him hw her day was and how was his day. - Sort of

    (iv) when even after texting gud Night, she is expecting another, just another (last) sms from him. - Yes

    (v) yes its Love, because friends don't talk for hours over the phone where from casual chat the conversation turns to be a quarrel, then to a pampering phase etc. and at the end of it(even after hours and hours of talking) when the call/meeting ends she cant wait for the conversation/meeting to start all over again. - Yes

    Now, I'll leave it to you to draw the conclusion :)


  8. Neha Says:

    Pushkar - I'll trust you entirely, but even then, leave the girl to sort out her confusion. But I'm sure what you've said will help her take a decision soon :)


  9. Neha Says:

    Ani - Thanks... wait for the sequel to this one now :)


  10. pushkar Says:

    and by any chance is d grl u r talking bout ..is no one else but u??
    :) :) :)


  11. Neha Says:

    Pushkar, don't tax your brains.... you'll know when I fall in love :)


  12. aamirzzz Says:

    Well, i dont want to draw any conclusion here.Its for the girl to decide.
    But going by the answeres u have given, then Yes, Its Love!

    Aamir


  13. Neha Says:

    True Aamir, it's for the girl to decide.... I'll sure keep you all posted :)